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Sarikei, here I come!

Guess where I'm going to spend my next 3 month for practical session?

Hospital Sarikei, Sarawak!

Aihhh. Jauhnya.

Still, can't wait to start my first day. Excited? Sikit. hee :D

Goodbye KL.

Goodbye people.

Goodbye Borneo Rainforest. Ehhh? haha

And Welcomee SARIKEI!

* I'll be off to Kuching 25 Dis, it's chrismas babyyy.

* I think there'll be more updates on my TUMBLR after this ( there mehh, kat tepii ada link I put. hehe ). Feel free to check 'em out.

* oh, i'm gonna miss SHAH ALAM & the girls

( certainly!! ). Miss me keyh.

with love,

mel.

Disember.

Recently, there's so many unknown numbers calling and sent me texts. It's get even creepier when they sounded upset and marah when I hung up the phone as soon as I knew that they were some unknown guys with some stupid pick-up lines.
Oh, I'm not a kind of person who will fall for such lines and above of all, I'm not interested with those crapppp! I personally feel that it's lame and annoying like very-very much.

Don't blame me for being such meanyyy-bitch. It's not my fault.

Forget that. Last night I had a very bad dream. Tsunami. Yess. Tsunami :(
I remember they were many dead people and I was crying really bad as I saw my brother's dead body being carried away by some unknown people. Everything felt so real. I mean, the victim. Dead bodies. Funeral. My tears. Oh, it's still scares me very much you know as if bad thing will happen in anytime soon.
Ok, it was just a nightmare. Nothing bad will happen. NO. Nothing bad will happen!

Hurm.. :((

Oh. I gotta go now!

Anyway, before that I'd love to wishhh..
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO IZIE, AUNTIE AISYAH, BEB'S DADDY ( 5 DIS )
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AFFI ( which is today. Sweet 21 howh! )
and of course MOM. HAPPY UPCOMING BIRTHDAY ( 20 Dis )

Disember oh Disember,
sure so many people celebrating their birthdays on disember.

Azam ehh?

Azam baruu..

Pakai tudung everytime gi kelas. Kolej. Praktikal? Yess, time praktikal pun!

* I love blogging using TUMBLR but I've made up my mind, BLOGSPOT is my priority. Means more update will be on blogspot. TUMBLR is ok but we can't leave comment. Oh, too bad. Sorry TUMBLR, I betrayed you :(

* Next week I'll be having my final exams. I so hate exam but LOVEEE the study weeks. No class is heaven :D

* My practical ( for 3 month ) will be started on 28 December 2009. End of this year. Tempat? Belum tauuu. Maybe somewhere in SARAWAK. Kuching? Miri? Bintulu? Rajangg? Ngaaa :P

* I miss my longg hairrrr ( I told ya I'm gonna regret it ). Padan mukaaa :(

In loving memory of my long hair.. iskk. iskk :'(

22

In less than two month, I'll be 22 years old. Yup, twenty-FUCKIN'-two years. Oohhh, I'm getting old. The other day, Nora asked me this bonus question and yeah, she got me thinking.

" we'll be 22 years anytime soon, and what have we accomplished?"

What is a good questionn....

Two.

Peeps.

I'm having two blogs which obviously will having more updates since I posted it directly through my phone.

ouchh~

I was googling icanread.tumblr.com and then I saw this..

er..I'd say ouchh.

Thursday.

++ baru bgun tido after a long deep sweet sleep. ( I slept like 12 hours. Ishh )

++ It's Thursday.. And I don't have class today. Not until Monday. Means I have 4 days to kill and unfortunately no plans were made. For sure malas nak kua.

++ I sooo love SLEEPING. Guess I'll just tido memanjang till Sunday. Aaah. Heaven :))

++ I think I've gained weight. Hurm..

++ I don't feel like texting. Going out. Meeting people. Hanging out. Taking bath. Do laundry ( urghh.. malas ) right now. I just wanted to be alone. Doing thinngs on my ownn.

++ I don't feel like having freakin' loving boyfriend.

++ I hate the feeling when missing someone so badly.

++ Maybe I should start taking seriously about my food intake or I'll loose my shape :P

++ Being in love makes me weak. And seriously fragile. Unfortunately, I am in love. Deeply and stupidly still in love. Gosh. I'll take that as a bad news :(

++ For some unexplained reason, there were butterflies fyling and running trough my veins as I accidently saw his account.

++ I'm not in the good mood.

++ It feels good having a secret site when nobody's knows it existence. Only you and only you. yourself knew it :)



LOVE,
melisa.

pokai :(

"mak. mintak duit. pokai eyhhh :P"

I don't want to miss you.

Why. WHY. why and Why

on earth

.

I still miss you, HUNTER?

.

oh. I don't want to miss you.

......

Recent Update.

Still the same old boring days.

Class. Balik rumah, tidoo. Class then again, balik tidoo. Class. Skipping class. Watch pirated DVDs at home. Tido. Tidoo.

at college.

After class. Hey, notice my reflection at the glass. hee :P

Stranger and I are still in touch. Actually, dah lost cntact tp ntah macam mana boleh muncul balik. He texted. I replied ( bila rajin ). Sometimes he did called ( hurm, what a friendly guy ). And then ada satu hari ni, he called. Blabla.bla.. Chit chat. Nothing personal, biasala perbualan biasa. Tanya khabar and suddenly out of the blue, before we ended the conversation ;

Stranger : blabla.bla.. okla, gotta go!

Me : ok.

Stranger : bye. erm. I love you.

* masing2 silent *

Stranger : I gurau jerr. Hahaha ( what a fake laugh. I think he's covering himself )

Me : owh.. ok.

Stranger : bye.

Love? Owh man. Is 'LOVE' word supposed to be that easy? I don't really remember when was the last time I ever said it to someone ( I think the last person was HUNTER ). I don't use that word much though. Kalau 'I LIKE YOU' selalula ucap. Friends. Crush. Ex. Hahaha. Sumala :P
All these times, I choose not to believe that Stranger is actually hitting on me ( since he gave clues. signs n ntah pa2 ). Maybe, he was just being nice, friendly, caring and all. We are friends after all and I'm not intended to cross the line. If I do then, I'm sure it would be just another waste-timing game between two people. When interest gone then it's done. End of story!

I don't want to loose him. As friend of course :)

Tukar cerita..
Along will be going back to Sarawak for hols. Have a nice hols then! I so love it when you are not around in KL. Merdeka oiii. hahaha :))

Along and Nik

Just recently. We went out jalan2. Obviously he wasn't ready for shots. Haha. Spoil muka kau!

Anywayy, I got suprised present from Hamidah. Awwhh. I was so touched~ :'D

She gave me this wonderful scarf. So macam jakun, i tried it onn. I so love it.
Serious, aku prasan aku gipsy jap. haha :))


Abis puas lilit kepala, sekarang lilit leherr. hee.
Thanks howhhh.

Last but not least,

dengan ini secara rasminya saya mengumumkan, I've cut my hair. My precious long hair.. I was bored. xda keja. Potong sendiriii taww. Hamidah tolong sikit rapikan bahagian belakang since I can't twist my body 360 degree. hehe. And I know, I'll regret it in anytime soonnn :P

:)

* xda masa double check grammar and spellingg. Malasssss*

XOXO.

First and foremost, congratulations to myself. Mellow mood is gone. Lost thinggy and so wutever? Urghhh. Guess being carried away by imbalance emotions yet insecurity feelings were not a good choice after all. And why would I let those soft spots get into me when I actually have another choices and options to not to be disappointed nor hurt in first place. Like - Don't go on something complicated? And ouh, do stop wasting times on unworthy people ( except you were on some dirty games ).

Speaking of complicated, guys always complained me being complicated. Am I? Just because I always being direct and straight with my words, opinions and feelings or maybe because I always makes the first move ( there's nothing wrong with it right? haha ). I know sometimes I can be crazy, unexplainable, ridiculous, emotional and even wild. Unfortunately, before the whole get-to-know real me session was over, they've already made a judgement. I'm such a slut. Urghhh. I don't blame them anyway. My D-cup sometimes do blind people's eyes. And of course, my easy going personality always gives wrong signals. Wrong impressions. Ouh, I don't understand them. Oops. Correction, people always have hard time untuk understand me.

Not suprised! Not suprised!

Trust me, I'm not that easy. And of course, not that complicated ( if you've known me better ). But hey again, why waste times thinking people's negative judgements. Try to change myself into someone I'm not. I believe only worthy people sees the best in people :)

Currently at Shah Alam. At Nora's. Panjangg crita. You wouldn't want to know how I ended up jalan kaki dari Padang Jawa ( stesen ktm ) to Seksyen 7 pukul 9 malam. Did I mentioned it was raining. Dark and I did demam on next day. But I'm not blaming anyone. Everybody seems busy with their on things which it would be inappropriate if tiba2 minta tolong. And plan B seems to be bad since mr. Bear was unreacheable. I can't help thinking he's running away from me. It's not his fault anyway. Guess it's the best thing actually.. nobody would stand for someone like me for long time except precious girlfriends. Those worthy people. And not forgetting, mr. Hunter. He's always been the coolest guy I ever met. Coolest than ice if I'm not mistaken? Haha

Seriously, I got to make things short right now as my brother is on his way fetching me at Nora's. I'm done sneaking out. I'm done lying to him. By the way, he has the right to know where I went on weekends and whose I've been hanging out with. He might be overprotective but I sure don't have right to lie to him in first place even I know I might not having peluang untuk stay over for weekends at Nora's. Anymore.

p/s : pardon for grammatical error. In rush tok!

Lost.

I'm not proud to admit, I do need someone on my side. To grab my hand whenever I started to loss my direction. Always get my feet sticked on the ground. Comfort me when I get scared. Remind me if I was wrong. Giving support whenever I need them. Keep me company when I get alone.

I'm not that strong. It's human's nature, tend to forget. Tend to get lost. And so do I. I hate being lost. In fact, I am now and Unfortunately, I don't see any hands to grab on.

Till then I'll keep be strong. I will be fine. I know I always do.

Cuti Deepavali Oi!

Okayyy. why xde org inform me that Masterskill will be having a one week hols next week starting this Friday? Sheeshh. Somehow I feel left out as usually I'm the one yang paling update pasal cuti. Class yg kene cancel dan everything related with 'NO CLASS' n stuffs. Haha :P

Now, what am I going to do selama satu mggu cuti?

For sure, I'm not going to Nora's at Shah Alam. I know the girls are busy with their assignments and upcoming final exams. Takutla mengganggu and menyusahkan. Ouh, it's almost 2 pm. Gotta go. Ade class! Daa C: